Dinner Out...or In

%&$&# ! ! ! ### this morning. I'm so disgusted I could vomit ! ! !

For bkfst I had my usual. For lunch I had a turkey sandwich on whole wheat with mustard, lettuce & tomato. For dinner I had chinese with 3 friends. While they ate fried rice, battered shrimp and sweet/sour chicken I had white rice and 2 vegetable dishes. One had hoisin sauce in it but I don't think that has much fat. The other vegie dish was clearly steamed with a clear sauce. Maybe the vegies with hoisin was wok fried and had some fat. I had at least 10 waters.

I think I had a big bm yesterday but it must have been the day before which helped to account for the ### weight. I'm eating prunes 2-3 in the am and pm every day.

This am I've had 4 prunes and my tea. Mom and I will go to bkfst and I'll havae dry toast and orange. Going to PA today to get drop Mom at the "home" and I'll take loads of carrots, water and my 1/2 pbj sandwich.

I'll either have the other xmas bird or the leftover speghetti tonight.

My friends and I have decided to do this chinese thing every once in a while. The next time I'll have just white rice and the vegie dish that was steamed. I'll check with the restaurant about how it was prepared. Or do you have an alternative? I guess I could have brought your teraki ckn. Or made my own stuff so I could be sure of what was in it.

I just realized I did not eat throughout the day like I usually do. I was bush all day running around town and had a contractor walk around the houses with me to get an estimate for residing.

I felt like I was being so good last night to give up the fattening stuff.
I don't even what to talk about this today.
I'm just so so disappointed.
Love, B.


I don't know what to say except please hang in there. I know it is difficult and I know your are dissapointed. And no you don't have to take my teriyaki chicken out to dinner...I don't think they would appreciate that.
If anything your body thinks you are starving it and is hanging on for dear life to everything you give it. That's the reason for eating every 2 to 3 hr. I'll have to get you a watch that dings every hour...one ding and you drink water, next ding you eat, next ding you exercise...ooops I said the "e" word.
It's a good idea to ask how their food is prepared, especially if you plan to eat there with your friends again. The rice probably had butter in it and they will not change that because they probably make 20 servings all at one time. You could take a packet of my brown rice and a packet of wild rice (heated up at home) and just say you'd like steamed veggies. Then you add the hoisin sauce, or sweet & sour sauce or or soy sauce (all are ok in small quantities) The trick is to avoid the sesame oil & peanut oil which gives Chinese food it's distinctive flavor...1 T of either is 6 g of fat and none of their stir-fried veggies will come without it. And remember, white rice is not too good for you even if it was plain.

But here's an even better idea. I'll send you 4 chinese dinners next time and you can have them over for dinner (I will not pack it the same way as last time because the rice dried out. In fact, I have 4 Hawaiian Chicken dinners already frozen I can send in the next cooler. I'd much rather do that. I could do something like that each month and they'd get a free meal. All you'd have to do is heat the sauce and chicken (each packet has 1 breast & plenty of sauce), warm up the brown rice. You could even buy a bag of frozen chinese veggies (or broccoli) and toss it in a steamer basket for a side dish. A dinner fit for a King. This early in the game ( I know it seems like it's NOT EARLY AT ALL), it's not fair to you to make you watch & smell what your friends can eat and you can't. And I could do a different 'foursum' meal each month. I have 4 Thanksgiving dinners (packed correctly this time) frozen also...no mashed potatoes but with baked sweet potatoes with coconut cranberries.

Do any of them need or want to lose weight? If not, those that don't could order take out and bring it to your house. What time does ma go to bed? Or you could plan it while she is in the home. Let me know if you want me to send 4 Hawiian Chicken Dinners
I am sending you more Acai Berry and also Acai Berry Detox. I also take a little pill called 'Serinity' and it may help you with ma. I'm also sending you a handy little veggie slicer to make it easier for you to make salads. You could have a Salad Bar Party. I've got some great ideas for that.
Love S


Wow! ! ! Thank you so much for being so understanding and thoughtful about the meals. Yes ! ! ! But only send 2 Hawaaian Ckn dinners. We bought 2 dinners and 2 vegie plates last time and we had tons left over. All are as big or bigger than me and do need to lose weight. They didn't eat much but maybe it's because they didn't want to pig out in front of each other. I don't know. But 2 dinners would be great. What we do is take them out to another friend's house who is unable to walk because of an injury. We are doing this until she gets her leg well.

Actually tho it wasn't hard to watch them eat the fattening stuff. I wasn't that fond of what they were eating except for the fried rice. But I didn't even mind missing the fried rice. I was so determined to do good. But somehow I blew it.
Love B.


OK, only 2 bags.
I'll send 2 bags of Hawaiian Chicken (each bag contains a breast half in LOTS of sauce ) & I'll make Guilt Free Fried Rice and send enough of that for 4. But you'll still need to steam a bag of frozen Chinese or Oriental veggies (or they may be labeled stir-fry veggies) and a bunch of frozen broccoli or broccoli & cauliflower mix. You can toss a small can of sliced mushrooms into some soy sauce (has no fat) and dump them on top of the broccoli before steaming.

After steaming the oriental veggies, toss them while hot with 2 teaspoons (notice I spelled that out) of sesame oil. The flavor is VERY strong and 2 t is only 4 grams of fat for all of 4 people.

Have each lady bring a bottle of some type of oriental sauce or ingredient...i.e. duck sauce, hoisin sauce, fish sauce ( have them check the fat content), cans or bottles of tiny baby corn (it has no fat), sl water chestnuts (has no fat), bean sprouts ( has no fat), edammame (it has little fat) to serve on the side or toss in with the veggies or broccoli or GFG fried rice.

Other ideas:
You could steam up a box of snow peas...toss with 1 T of hoisin sauce and a T of sesame seeds

I love this tiny side salad: 1/2 c White or Rice Wine Vinegar & 1/2 c water, 1 t sesame oil, cucumbers, green onions, thin sliced radishes, cherry tomatoes(halved or quartered). Chill 2 hr.
Love S


I can't tell you how much I apreciate you. I forgot to tell you that my surgery is here in F. It's very simple but apparently painful for several days after.
B